and the move ~
Recently, I sold my house. Instead of buying a different house, I chose two and a half acres in the Pisgah National Forest and am navigating living there off-grid.
Eventually there will be a cabin and a greenhouse- food, herbs and flowers being grown.
My days are currently filled clearing wild rose brambles and poison ivy- trying to pause to pick rose hips as I go, my body is completely worn but the vision is beginning to take shape.
While the day to day challenges of living without modern amenities stand out, and seem to be what most people who ask me about it are wondering about, I wish I could describe the simple moments of beauty and joy and satisfaction. I am still processing and trying to put it into words.
The language will come and visions will continue to take shape.
Simply being able to exist out there takes up most of my energy and I know there will always be a project that needs attention. The winter will be an opportunity to temporarily let some of that go, which is fortunate, because my heart feels equally called to training, music, and writing.
The news is terrible and I still don’t mind paying attention to it. I think the radio is still one of the best places to hear from different voices and to get information, and I’m looking forward to spending time with my brain in between some headphones in the future, and voice reverberating out to you, one way or another.
In the book Emergent Strategies, Adrienne Maree Brown urges us to “move at the speed of trust”, and that strategy has thus far kept me relatively at ease. I consider this move to be an emergent strategy, a reflection of the essential work I’ve done on myself the past several years, and some of the clarity that awaits on the other side of grief and trauma. I’ve had opportunities to make a move like this in the past and knew I wasn’t ready.
Learning how to slow down, regulate my nervous system, and move at the speed of trust, has allowed me to go deeper into my work and led me to a more relaxed version of myself, I’m enjoying getting to know them!
Love, Lee
11•11•2025